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At Peace

I think this is literally the first time in my life I have been at PEACE. I am a person who deals with a lot of anxiety and some times I make myself cray thinking about the things that I can not change and control. This year I decided that all of that was going to stop and that I would no longer live my life as such. I started off my year being the same old me with all of my anxiety and so on but one day I got down on my knees and decided to pray. The prayer that I prayed was for God to help me with my anxiety, and allow me to be more grateful for the things that I have and STOP harboring over the things that I don’t have. I also asked God to help me be more positive in all situations and always find the good in anything that is thrown my way. I also promised to stop looking at what other people were doing in their lives and just focus on myself.

My goal in 2018 is to put 110% energy, mental and physical, into myself. Ever since I have prayed this prayer and really been trying to be more positive, my whole attitude has been totally different. I have never felt better before. I am so at peace with myself and my life than I have ever been in my life. It has only been about a week since I prayed this prayer, but when I tell you that since that week I have been thrown some curve balls (including me getting robbed in Trinidad)…I have been thrown some massive curve balls that were meant to take me down. BUT someway, somehow I haven’t felt anxiety or depression rather just Peace and Joy!!!

I say this to say, that being at Peace isn’t something that you can’t have too. You need to strive for it and really work on it. You need to identify and eliminate the things that is causing you not to have peace in your life. A habit, a person or a place that you’re in, whatever it is, nip it in the bud immediately. And last but not least, pray with an honest and open heart for peace and stillness.

Oversharing

 

I recently had an epiphany. In a world of sharing, perhaps there are some things that are better left unshared.

Of course with each one of my milestones and accomplishments I want to let the world know about what I’ve done, but it occurred to me that perhaps I was doing all of these things to gain some type of validation from the outside world.

I mean, is it not enough to tell my close family and friends about my accomplishments, receive a congrats text, and just be happy with that? Must I update my FB status telling all my FB friends (most of whom are people from high school that I don’t even talk to anymore) that I have done something awesome in my life? Must I put everything that I have done in my instagram bio? Must I post every picture that me and the guy that Im dating at that time online so that the world knows who I am seeing? Must I post things riddled with hashtags so people can see who I am??? (#blackgirlMagic, #RoadToMBA, #blacknomad).

These are just some of the questions that I began asking myself and I realized that moving forward I want to dial back what I show to the world and the manner in which I discuss my accomplishments.

Am I proud of myself? Yes. Do I want people to be just as excited and happy as I am about me moving forward in my life? Yes. But there is a fine line between sharing and bragging and I don’t want to cross that line.

So with that being said I went on my instagram and cleared out my bio. I deleted any pictures of me and any significant other and I decided to just keep the photos that I felt relayed a message of happiness, joy, and fun.

Every living moment of my life doesn’t have to be put on display and some precious moments are better left to those that are close to me.

 

 

South Africa Part 9: Our last day in Cape Town

Our last day in Cape Town we spent the day at Green Market Square. The day before we had asked one of our servers  where was a good place for us to purchase South African souvenirs at a cheaper price. He said Green Market Square was the place to go. Since we only had a few more hours left in Cape Town until we departed, we ate a small breakfast and made our way to Green Market Square. We called an Uber and he dropped us off right by the square

Once we walked up, there were several different vendors and most of them were selling the same things. Initially I thought that each vendor had hand crafted, painted or sewn each item, but as I walked around I realized that they all had the same exact items. But this was not that big of a deal to me because the items were very nice nonetheless.

What is good about Green Market Square is that you can negotiate prices with the vendors. What is bad about Green Market Square is that you can negotiate prices with the vendors. What do I mean? Well first off it is always a good thing when you can talk down a price but some times this can lead to vendors haggling you, giving you their life story about how much they are struggling or even you feeling guilty that you asked for a cheap price on an item (this was my case, I felt really bad asking for lower prices). It was a bit overwhelming when we were walking around the different booths trying to decide what to get. I wanted to get everything, but of course I could not. It was also overwhelming because as soon as I would go up to look at an item more closely I was then bombarded with the vendor asking me a ton of questions or saying things to me to try and make me buy it. I mean I get it. This is how people make their living and as a person from a third world myself I respect the hustle, but sometimes I just want to browse and decide on my own.

Nonetheless we ended up getting some real good items to bring back to America. Some of the vendors actually take credit cards, but most only take cash. We ran out of cash at one point in time so we had to go to a local ATM to get some more. Since Green Market Square is in a busy part of Cape Town finding an ATM was not hard at all.

 We purchased kente clothe bags, necklaces, cups, dashikis, key chains, and so much more. Here are just some of the items that we purchased. Unfortunately I did not think to take any pictures of Green Market Square myself (still trying to get use to documenting everything) but I went ahead and googled some images of the square so that you could get the idea of what it was like.

Aiming for a life of Minimalism

At the end of 2015, I moved back  home to the Washington DC from Portsmouth, Virginia. While I was packing I realized that I had TOO many things. Too many unworn items of makeup, shoes, and mostly…too many pieces of clothing. As I packed up all my things I was extremely overwhelmed by the amount of clothes and shoes that I had. Clothes in the closet, the drawer, under my bed, in my car trunk, and in my storage unit. Some of the items were things I wore once, things that I bought just because, and things that  I was just too lazy to send back. I realized then that I wanted to strive for a life of minimalism. I just had way too many things and I wanted to try to eliminate as much junk inside of my home as I was trying to eliminate within myself.

I could have just given a mass amount of my clothes away to the Good Will or Salvation Army, but I didnt want my clothes being added to a mound of clothes that is sent overseas to pile up on the side of the road somewhere (this is actually toxic to locals). So I decided that I was going to sell as many items as I could on Poshmark. Poshmark is an app that allows you to take pictures of your clothes, write a description about it, set the price that you want for the item, and sell it.

My Poshmark site

I also decide to stop buying so many clothes. We all have our vices. We all have the things that make us feel better, mine has always been buying things. Having a new outfit that someone could compliment me on was one of the things that made me feel better when I was down. Obviously this is not the best tactic in searching for peace and comfort so I decided to enforce a spending freeze on myself unless I absolutely needed it.This has been the hardest thing, but this past year I have been doing really well sticking to this plan!

The last thing that I decided to do was start wearing my old clothes again. You know how it is, we wear something for a season, discard it and never pick it back up again. Well this is something that I decided to stop doing. I have decided to start wearing my clothes until they run down and must be thrown away rather than just replacing it with a newer version just because.  I cant tell you how satisfying it was for me to start back wearing an old shirt that I had purchased in 2011, and wearing it until the sleeve tore. I know this sounds super janky BUT if all of us began buying clothes only when we really needed them just think of how much money we would save a year.

Now that 2017 is approaching I am hoping that I can continue my journey to minimalism and eliminating the unnecessary out of my life. I am hoping that all of this will assist me in decreasing my materialistic ways and continue down the path of financial freedom, gratitude, and appreciation.